Writting always made me feel better. I never wanted anyone to read what I wrote and suddenly Im writting in my blog. Am I asking for help?

And why am I writting in english? Makes no sense, I hate my english. Maybe…

1. Im hiding from something
2. Im pretending to be someone else
3. I wanna punish myself
4. Im looking for a reason to hate myself
5. Im just bored
6. This is my way out

Today is really bad. I cannot stop crying.